dognovel Chapter 229 I Didn’t Always Like Working
Chapter 229 I Didn’t Always Like Working
She said: "Don't... wake up, Shu Baizhu, don't..."
Ziyi yelled "No" and sat up from the bed, her forehead covered with fine beads of sweat. She gasped for air like a fish about to suffocate, until the dim light at the head of the bed came on and someone called her, "Xiao Zi."
Her panicked heart seemed to have found a home at this moment. She hugged Qin Yuhuan's waist and said, "Sister, I'm scared."
"Sister is here," Qin Yuhuan hugged Ziyi tightly, patted her back, and comforted her softly, "Xiaozi, I'm here."
"So much..." Ziyi swallowed, "So much blood, I bled a lot, I remember, I remember, I went to work every day, I worked endlessly, I wanted to forget that my body was bleeding."
"I didn't always like working. I wasn't a workaholic before."
"But if I stop, I will feel so much pain. I dare not go to the hospital or see a family doctor. I threw all the sheets and quilts into a garbage station far away. Only I know about this. I dare not stop."
Qin Yuhuan's expression changed again and again. She now extremely wanted Shu Baizhu to come over immediately. She couldn't wait to slap her.
Is such a person worthy of being called in love?
"I know, Xiaozi is very well behaved." Qin Yuhuan's tone was gentle, but her eyes seemed to be filled with hurricanes. "I'll sing a song for you, okay? Listen to my songs, hold my hand while you sleep, and there will only be me in your dreams. I will protect you."
Ziyi was originally in a state of half asleep and half awake. When the clear and pleasant singing sounded, she seemed to have entered an extremely safe environment, and soon she fell asleep again due to exhaustion.
In the dim light, innocent nursery rhymes were sung over and over again until dawn.
When Ziyi woke up, Qin Yuhuan had already gotten up from the bed. She thought about what happened last night and was a little unsure, "Did I have a nightmare last night?"
"Yes," Qin Yuhuan took off the clothes she had chosen and threw them to Ziyi, feeling helpless. "I sang lullabies to you all night, and you started crying when I stopped for a while. If you don't reimburse me for a box of Jinshengzi today, you're going too far."
Posture: ...
"I... didn't..." She quickly put on her underwear and shirt, "Am I really that outrageous? I don't remember it very clearly. It seems like I had a nightmare, but I can't remember what I dreamed about."
She had just gotten up at this moment, and she vaguely remembered that she seemed to be a little scared to the point of chilling her bones. "Then did I tell you what I dreamed about? Was I embarrassing last night?"
"Hmm... I was a good kid who had to listen to songs to fall asleep all night," Qin Yuhuan pondered for a moment, then smiled again, "That's probably it."
Posture: ...
"The pillar of the family is about to break down early in the morning."
"Xiaozi was very brave last night. She wanted to take me to the mountains and the sea to catch monsters," Qin Yu laughed even more happily and gave a thumbs up, "You are worthy of being the pillar of my family."
Posture: ...
"I'm going to see a psychiatrist today. Are you going? Do you have any notices this afternoon?"
Qin Yuhuan shook his head: "I turned it down."
"Why would you turn it down for no reason?" Ziyi was very puzzled. She had asked her assistant to make an appointment with the doctor and had not told Qin Yuhuan in advance. Qin Yuhuan was a dedicated person and would go as long as there was a notice of a typhoon, let alone windy and thundering.
"Don't meddle in my wife's affairs." Qin Yuhuan snorted, looking as if he was not happy with Zhiyi.
Ziyi didn't think much about it and got up happily. After breakfast, the driver came and took the two of them to Ji Henian's private clinic.
It was also Qin Yuhuan's first time to come to the psychological clinic. She took a few brochures from the side and sat in the waiting area to read them. She thought it would take a long time, but Ziyi and Ji Henian came out less than fifteen minutes after the door was closed.
Qin Yuhuan:?
"You don't need to take any medicine, but you just need to come here regularly." Ziyi sighed.
She didn't have enough time to begin with, and now that she's well, she has to cut out a big chunk of it to come see a psychologist.
"Let's talk in my office." Ji Henian pointed in a direction and led the two people to her office. "She does have post-traumatic stress disorder."
This can be diagnosed.
"Then, what do we need to do to cooperate with the treatment?" Qin Yuhuan has done her homework and knows some treatment measures for PTAD. "Can Chinese medicine play a supporting role?"
"Ziyi's situation is somewhat special. As you can see, she has almost no discomfort symptoms," Ji Henian explained. "She is not anxious, nor does she suffer from insomnia. Her mood is stable. The auxiliary effect of taking medicine is minimal. The solution I proposed for her is desensitization treatment."
“By constructing scenarios, you repeatedly stimulate this psychological barrier.”
Qin Yuhuan didn't say anything, but Ziyi agreed. If she could explain her memory of that night clearly, she would remember it clearly. But if she couldn't explain it clearly, it always felt vague. Maybe constructing a scene could really help her desensitize herself?
"But there is one thing I want to tell you first. The reason why Ziyi has no discomfort is that I guess her body's self-protection mechanism has been stimulated. Her body has judged that the severity of this matter exceeds her tolerance, so her feelings about it have been dulled."
Although Ji Henian still doesn’t know what Ziyi has encountered, the degree of pain must be very high.
"I have two suggestions. A relatively conservative treatment is to come to me regularly for psychological counseling. The other is a relatively sharp desensitization therapy. I can't give a specific time limit for the former, maybe one or two months, or maybe one or two years. This is unpredictable. As for the latter..."
Ji Henian paused, as if considering what to say.
"If she remembers everything during the first scene reconstruction, there is a chance that she will refuse treatment because it is too painful, and it will trigger a series of uncomfortable symptoms, right? Depression, anxiety, or numbness, sleep disorders, etc."
Qin Yuhuan took over Ji Henian's words. After getting Ji Henian's nod, she tightly grasped Ziyi's hand and said, "Can you give us some time to think about it, Doctor Ji?"
"Of course, you can come over anytime once you've made up your mind, or send me a message and I will make arrangements based on your choice." Ji Henian smiled slightly.
After returning home, Ziyi came over and hooked Qin Yuhuan's hand, "I still want to go for treatment."
"I don't want to agree, Xiaozi." Ziyi didn't know that Qin Yuhuan had personally seen Ziyi's frightened face last night. "You kept crying in your dream last night, as if you were about to break. I wonder if you had a nightmare because you remembered something during the day and your subconscious was stimulated."
"Well... I will persevere. I want to remember the most clear truth." Ziyi was not angry because of Qin Yuhuan's objection. "Let's tell Doctor Ji that you accompany me during the treatment, and I won't be afraid, okay?"
Qin Yuhuan: ...
"Okay, sister, I want to be a pillow princess too." Ziyi once again used her coquettish skills, "I heard it would be very enjoyable, but I haven't experienced it yet."
"I know you are afraid that I will get worse and worse, even worse than before, but I am different now. I am the Ziyi of Qin Yuhuan's family, made of steel."
Qin Yuhuan: ...
She looked so pitiful. She was obviously very tall, but in order to pretend to be pitiful, she bent her body. The man looked up at her from below, and her rippling eyes made people feel helpless.
"Okay." Qin Yuhuan raised his hands, his eyes showing a resigned compromise, "I can't do anything to you."